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                                                            懷玉 11.21 畫

Mum:
………………

I just didn't want to be involved again,

that's none of my business.

We just did what those adults wanted us to do.

I want to get out of all these things.

It's so annoying and

now we are even keep "discussing" about making more lies!

Silence. I just want everything to be clear!

So many people and things invloved,

so many things I can't control.

And so many things that I thought already under controll,

but actually not.

All of a sudden it happened

and I had no idea how to deal with it.

Making more lies?

Oh God I want to leave here!

Is it the "adults world" you told me?

Then, I really realize why it is better to be a student!

Yesterday I slept on the couch in the living room alone on 1F.

There's a film studies test tomorrow.

Let it go, I forgot everything after these chaos.

I just finished history paper.

Before writing this, I watch Strickly Come Dance,

a British dance competition,

like American's So You Think You Can Dance.

That was really great and one of the songs was from Ricky Martin, which I can sing in Spanish version!

A star dancer with a competitor form a couple,

and one of the star dancers is Pasha

who I used to see and like on So You Think You Can Dance.

It's the most amazing.

However, while I am sleeping, I feel nothing.

And watching the dance competition makes me happy.

But it only lasts one hour.

After that, all the things come back,

phone rings again and again.

Everything just come back bothering me. 

（Sent: Sunday, November 18, 2012 10:16 PM）